post-wondering state

hi people. wah its been a long time since my last update.
been superbly busy i dont even know how to describe it
and it doesnt mean tht i'm less busy now
just tht i feel like writing some thing else beside thesis.

ok. thesis is still on-going.
there is progress.
so far so good, but the not good thing is the fact tht i need to submit my draft this freaking week.
(well actually should have submitted it today but what to do. still havent finish yet :()
grr..cuak2.

hm, i did post something last nite but i reckon no one reads it.
it just some rubbish i wrote out off thinking.
removed it when i regained my consciousness which is less than 2 hours after posting it here
hahaha..

something came up and tht makes me wanna write here
but after a lot of thinking, i dont wanna make a fuss out of it.
let bygone be bygone. after all, the damage has been done.
no way to mend it.

and i dont know wht the relationship is, but i think i might need a new or perhaps more new handbag.
been oogling some really gorgeous handbags and i really2 want them

oh april is approaching. and i smell cake
oh, was it a birthday cake people?
wahahaha..vain gile

i want handbags plss.
gorgeous, gorgeous bagss..

my beautifool sunday

hola!

how are ya people? all good?

as usual, nothing exciting occurred today.

ni nk cerita kisah sedih mengguris hati yang telah berlaku beberapa hari lepas

(well actually i was kinda reluctant to write it here plus adalah kemalasan tahap dewata raya pedang setiawan volume 7)

ok kisah ini bermula begini.

on tht day, (couldnt remember when. probably khamis or jumaat), i didnt eat much during the day coz emak adalah tidak sihat plus i was extremely lazy to whip something for myself

(kalo kt cafeworld rajen la kau kn. dasar budak malas!)

so i ate whtever i can found in the kitchen like nestum and some biscuits and air sirap.

then i slept like most of the day. sampai la wktu utk menunaikn solat asar.

i woke up feeling superly hungry like all my cacings mcm wat tunjuk perasaan.

so i went to the kitchen and saw tht byk je nasik and ada lauk kari ikan terbaekkk yang ayah cooked semalam.

(kari ayah adalah super sedap tahap super saiyaa mengalahkn kedai mamak ameer ali. seyes!)

so i thot, oh y not i wt telur piza kegemaran ramai to eat with kuah kari and kicap. ( i dont like ikan kari. i prefer ikan goreng)

heaven!

so okla, i went for mgrib prayer (opss. tbocor sudah rhsia yg sy adalah mengamalkn solat diakhir waktu)

then emak went to mengaji class i was left and sebok2 kt dapo blkg menghasilkn resipi terhebat ala2 perempuan pemalas.

then suddenly dgr bunyi bising2 kt dapo kt dalam. bunyi periuk dan segala mcm senduk kt sinki.

so i was thinking, 'iwan bangun mkn nasik agaknye'

so since the back door was ajar, he must have known la someone was out at the bck.

so i left it like tht and i didnt check.

i continue my job and basuh segala tok nek periuk sudip coz emak is very particular abt this.

then i went in bring the remaining cili api and whtnot.

then there i saw, the periuk nasik together with the periuk kari terbaekk lying helplessly in the sink

oboy was ransacking the refrigerator in attempt to search whtever he wnt i dunno

seeing the scene make my heart fell apart

there goes my nasik and my kari terbaekkk

he had finished them all

being a good adik as i've always had, i asked him nicely

'nasik abeske?'

'bla bla bla..'

'oh aby br goreng telur ingt nk mkn' (sje ks ayat ni wt die rse bsalah. haha aku pengkeji)

'oh dhtu mcm mne?'

'takpela aby msak nasik lain. hang mkn la telur ni. aby goreng byk' (well i purposely goreng byk coz i know he'll b bck soon)

how's tht? solehah gile ek?

even tho i put on my muke selambe expression like it-doesnt-matter- i- dont-mind kinda face.

who know's whts inside.

i went inside my room n sms emak

'emak, oboy abeskn nasik. aby nk terjun batu belah :( '

haha..drama queen eh?

then i went to the kitchen, clean up all the periuk and cook the nasik.

as i was washing the periuks, my mata dh bergenang2. then meleleh la sebutir dua air mata gedik.

wahahaha.

all of a sudden i felt like a cinderella.

(wah poyoness tahap dewata raya!)

then rse bsalah pulak bg ayat yg wt oboy rse bsalah (if die rse bsalah la n prolly he was!)

he ate a lil telur only eventho i know my telur goreng was super sedap tht nite

wah again, poyoness!

then later had to wait for my nasik so i kemas2 the dapur n men game for awhile

as soon as my nasik dh masak, i ate like a piranha

and when emak balik from mengaji, kena gelak la

well actually i didnt mind nasik xde. but i mind the kari yg dh abes.

mse mula2 ayah masak kari tu i've been thinking dh

'klo x mkn cukup2 ni, mau meroyan ni'. least tht i know tht i'm the one who gonna meroyan later

wahahaha..

ok tu je la kot

xde activity menarik pon for lstweek

woke up late, went out for lunch, jln2 kepong and serata area till petang then went bck home

hope nxtweek akan menjadi super rajen dan menulis thesis dgn jaya nya

oh, again i'm having trouble sleeping at nite la

sigh. prolly dh tdo byk sgt siang nye kot

not good. not good.

okla. u people take care ok

and dont be a drama queen

taa!

arghhh..stress la begini

i've just started writing my thesis
haha. nothing extravagance tho. the truth is, i've just writing the titles of each chapter
and now i'm attempting to write the acknowledgement.
but i cant express wht i want to write. i cant find the suitable words.

serabut dibuatnya!

give me some ideas pls.
or else, akan terbantut la usaha utk mencari mood menulis thesis.

hm, another thing, lately i'm not feeling very well.
went for a checkup yesterday
i dont think it was a thorough checkup but the Dr should know better rite?
so since she said there wasnt anything serious, i shouldnt worry myself too much
but it still couldnt put my mind at ease

i woke up every morning with slight discomfort in my chest. and it will reappears every now and then.
i dont know what should i do but the Dr said it was probably due to my emotional state
probably i was stress. ( i am stress right now)
but it was normal for me to be in stress. this is nothing new.

sigh. takut la pulak.
i hope i can talk to malar la regarding this matter.

okla. sleepy already and i've given up writing for tonight.
shall continue tomorrow.

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as for now, i'll be responsible in posting ur item so u get to see my cute handwriting
so wht are u waiting for? order now and be ready to get mesmerized by my charming handwriting
(hahaha. poyo!)

okla. u people take care ok

love ya!
taa!

check up

lub.dup.lub.dup.

going for checkup tomorrow.

harap2 will manage to wake up early

i shall go to bed now.

nite people.

labwork finish edy?

weee~~~

kitorg dh siap labwork

but still unofficial coz x inform Dr

p ape2 pon ktorg sbnrnye dh xsaba nk habis

nk melangkah ke fasa kehidupan yg seterusnya

(oh.skemanya)

been bz lately. ayah was discharged from hosp ptg td.

and now i'm taking a break from everyday routine.

no more hosp visits so i guess, i'm allowed to wake up late after this. no?

heh. sbnrnye dh 2 hari bgn lmbt.

oh seronoknye rase. terimbau kenangan time menganggur dulu.

starting tomorrow, schedule dh penuh blk.

emak has booked most of my time.

byk mende nk kne settle so i guess i still couldnt focus on my thesis writing yet

(heh. alasan harus mantap!)

okla. nothing exciting to talk abt pon.

just feel like writing something coz i know someone been stalking me. ahem!

but lately pen-stalker dh dpt org br utk di-stalk. ;p

so, mne la tahu dgn menulis kisah merapu ini aku akan mdapat pen-stalker baru?

p xyah la ye. dont stalk me. go stalk obama or ur ketua kampung. ok?

okla. sleepy already.

take care ppl.

taa!

kesibukan yang tidak berkesudahan

hoh. mcm la aku seorang yang sebok. belum lg jd PM. klo jd PM cmne la agaknye ye.
(oh. ada hati ingin menjadi nampak?)

ayah still kt ward. tapi skrg dh ok sbb batu2 karang itu sudah dikeluarkn dgn jayanya.
so dh 2-3hari ulang alik ke hosp sg buloh then dh 2 hari ulang-alik ke selayang.
oboy yang soleh menjaga ayah dan aku ngn mak dpt berehat2 kt umah
but trust me, kami tidak berehat pon
penat lagi ada la.

last week 2 hari x msuk lab. xtahu apa yang blaku kt sne
nora cakap nxt week last.
amin. harapnya betul2 last. nk compile data then nk write thesis
patut nya dh kne start tulis2 apa2 yg patut. tetapi apakan daya..masa tdak mengizinkn. ecehhh..
cakap je la malas kn

ngantuk la pulak. aku rse lepas abes stdy ni aku nk berehat 2-3 minggu la.
amek angin. cari ketenangan. lupakn apa2 yang patut dilupakan.

jom baity g cameron!

oh ye. kenapa ye, bile kite dah lupa. kite dh ok. kite dh tak peduli. dah xnk amek peduli. mende yang kite nk lupe tu, datang balik.
aku dh mls nk pena2t pikir. tp kdg2 tetap pikir jugak. mcm xleh nk elak.
p xpe la. aku rse aku dh ok. pikir atau tak, dah xde kesan yang mendalam dalam jiwa dh.

hey mata ni ngantuk la pulak. magrib2 pon ko nk tidur ye.
penat la badan. mlm ni tido awal la.

have a great wiken ppl.
take care.

taa!

serabut mak but

semak la jiwa raga pandangan dan segalanya
cepat la lunch tiba. aku nk g amek angin jmpe minah ampang.

weehee..

tu je. xde point pon sbnrnye
babai people!