My Little Black Book

screw everything. why should i waste my life being depressed while at the same time i'm actually free to do everything i want, be anything i like. so yes, i should live my life to the fullest (despite that currently living my life to the fullest meaning i have to work my ass off doing dreadful labworks during weekdays and no rest even during weekends). so much of living my life, huh?

anyway, if thts what making me feel better than i wont complaint.

academically, i should talk about our project. so far, we nearly complete phase 1 of extraction. only 15 more samples to go and that should take approximately 2 weeks to finish. oh yes, today i didnt come to lab since i'm having stomach ache till i cant even stand properly. felt like the muscles in my stomach are shrinking. ok tht doesnt mean tht my body is shrinking too. i wouldnt mind having this stomach ache everyday if the muscle is shrinking means tht my body will shrink too. too bad they didnt come as a package.

4 samples have been successfully freeze-dried. Dr Z already supplied us with SDS-page equipments and tht reminds me tht we need to practice on making gels and testing the inhibitors' activity. we also received a mini fridge to store the buffer and solutions and whatnot but Dr wouldnt mind us keeping yogurt or soft drink inside as for now since the mini fridge is still all new and cute and clean. fifi even tempted to put his head inside and i wouldnt mind chopping ur head off if u really wish to put ur head in there fifo. heh. kidding!

ouh, speaking abt fifo. tht reminds me tht fifo said tht our blog entry will be plain boring if we didnt include some pictures. but i dont have suitable pic to include here. but fret not, its not like i'm doing some literature review so i can simply put any pictures tht i like rite? who cares anyway?

ouh daym. i've got a lot of stories to tell. see if i have the time. been busy lately like i'm the prime minister pulak.

yesterday and the day before, i accompanied fifi to putrajaya. wanted to settle some stuff with jpa and alhamdulillah, we never thought it would be tht easy and everything went well. not what we've expected but still, i'm grateful.
the 1st day to putrajaya, we went back home afterward but yesterday was a bit different. after lab, we went straight to IPIS and dont ask me where tht place is coz all i know is tht college located somewhere near denso and tell you what, it was one of the exciting journey coz we were lost on our way. and Ada couldnt shut her mouth and kept saying sorry all the way. macam la salah dia. aku pon xtahu jalan. but fifo the driver was so cool and finally, we reach there safely and me n fifo menjadi saksi kisah chenta pertama while eating cendawan goreng and ayam bijan.

ouh i forgot to tell, i tapau-ed cendawan goreng and ayam bijan to putrajaya yesterday coz i was full after a cup of nescafe ice and 3 pieces of karipap handmade by nora. and tht was all i have the whole day and probably thts y my stomach was making a fuss today.

so anyway, after kisah cinta pertama. we went to putrajaya to submit the form etc etc and rush back to kl. to bukit bintang or to low yat plaza to be exact. Ada needs to buy a wireless adaptor and they also planned to buy new handphones. they means all three of them, ada fifo n nora. all the okb in geng sedut@lilit. me? gigit jari shj.

oh lupe lagi. nora not following us to putrajaya coz she's with kisah cinta kedua yang br pulang dr egypt. they need to settle some stuff with mara so we met them in front of sogo coz there was a prob with kisah cinta kedua's car. then we went straight to low yat.

after surveying few shops, we move to sg wang meeting huny and vino. labmates juga. since i'm not buying handphones, i left them four and joined huny and vino surveying shoes and clothes but sedihnya coz didnt have much time and have to rush back home. pls esok pergi lagi if not, i cant sleep at nite. or even if i manage to sleep, i'll be dreaming of shoes. i want wedges. pronto.

oh then later me n vino took monorail to kl central and since we r so busy mengumpating seman and our 'neighbours', we took the wrong line. pity vino coz she's in a hurry. i hope she made it on time.

speaking of seman tak-keruan-i-dibuatnya, vino and huny said tht he's all tanned. i didnt see him like face-to-face tho he did ask abt those bottles so i didnt notice abt the change in his complexion. probably he went to some beaches or mybe Jerantut was hot last weekend. i wouldnt know. he looked like he's having some mood swing or pms yesterday and i dont feel like asking or probing into his life anyway. tho my mouth is itching to ask where did he go last friday. hilang semangat i.

hm. actually there's a lot more to tell but i need a dose of love drama to boost my mood. have a great day everyone and to my beloved geng sedut, sorry for not coming today. i'll miss u guys as much as i'm missing seman. bluewek. nora will poison me with her karipap next time if i kept talking abt seman. so till then love.

taa!

sigh. this entry shouldn't be one of my depressed-heart-content-full- of sh*t kinda story
since i was so happy lately. i felt rejuvenated.
surrounded with supporting friends and received quite a handful of good news
but still, things would turn sour in the blink of an eye

ok. i should stop bickering. things will turn better.
time will heal everything
thts what i told myself

i'm not good at handling problems. normally, what i do is, ask for opinion. and often i jump into things and later regret it.
and sometimes, i tend to run away. hoping to leave all the ugly things behind. and yet, they insist on following.
screw u!

why cant u just dissappear?

kisah aku dan dirimu
berakhir sebelum bermula
sekotak universal botol berharga rm365 menjadi saksi
kisah kita yang sampai kepenghujungnya

thankies for the effort

1 lawan 6 aku terpaksa memilih antara dua
kau atau mereka
kisah kita belum sempat bermula tapi aku dan mereka telah lama bersama
jangan buat ku tak keruan kerana kita hanyalah teman tapi tak berapa nak mesra
dan sila la jangan cuba nak bermesra kerana aku sudah di-blackmail mereka

thx for helping eventhough tahap keikhlasan adalah diragui
kau comel! tapi lalang
aku suka cendawan. bukan rumput. harap maklum.
last but not least..thnk fr th mmrs.
eh..u r not leaving..neither do us. so, thnk fr th tk keruan.

sadakallahul 'azim

falling deeper n deeper in love for these two songs..
enjoy~

LADY GAGA - LOVE GAME


ZEE AVI - BITTER HEART


=)

EDITED!
vclip lady gaga tu cm tut la sket plak. xpasan. heh. so watch at ur own risk ye. klo takut. download je lagu die. xyah tgk vclip ;p

wah. lame nye x update blog. kesian. macam rumah tinggal dh.
maaf la. busy sket lately ni.
maklumla sejak aku mula menceburkan diri ini dalam arena perladangan, hidup ni macam dah x cukup 24jam sehari. mcm kena tambah jd 30jam plak rase nye.
hari2 klo online pon semata2 untuk berladang. ditambah plak dengan laptop yang dh uzur ni. lagi la payah nk online saje2. perlu simpan energy untuk turun ke ladang.
lain la kalo ade yang sanggup beli kan laptop baru sejibik kt aku. kecik tapak tangan, kolam renang saiz olimpik aku tadahkan.
eh, kang rosak plak laptop if termasuk dalam air berklorin swimming pool.

ouh sile la jangan terkejut. aku bukan la berladang secara lahiriah atau dalam bahasa pasarnya, secara physical. aku berladang kat fb tu ha.
ada satu application yg sangat best name Farm Town
tah la, sejak azali aku mmg suke gile ngan game yang berunsur kan perladangan dan penternakan.
ok sile jgn salah faham. lahiriah nya aku tidak lah suka untuk berladang atau berternak. berternak lemak lain la pulak cerita nya.
kesukaan aku adalah memiliki duit yang byk. bagaimana cara mendapat duit yang banyak secara senang dan cepat, tidak lah aku ketahui.
tetapi jika bertanya pada seorang kawan aku, babun (bukan nama sebenar), jadilah ayam untuk mendapat duit scr mudah dan cepat.

ok berbalik kepada cerita game, mula2 aku adalah sangat suka bermain game Harvest Moon kt ps. seronok gile! gile pon tak seronok macam tu. masa tu aku still kt intec. so bile balik ke rumah aku akan main smpai 3-4am. nk dijadikan cerita, aku dh main smpai level yang mantap gile la. dlm tu kire dh smpai year 2 (year 3 abes), skali cousin aku terdelete aku nye tu mse die sibuk2 godek nk save game smackdown. pastu aku pon bengang gile trs aku stop main.

last week mse dalam lab, ternampak la sorg mmbe lab dok men game farm town, trus aku teringat kt harvest moon. ape lg, blk tu aku pon add application n start main. addictive! itu je yg aku leh cakap. best nk mati. (ok, aku xmo la mati ketika sibuk men game. nauzubillah)

okla. dah la cite pasal game. kalo korg nk tau. g la try. pastu jgn lupa invite aku jd neighbour korg k. then send la gift byk2 kt aku. n jgn lupa juga hire aku nnt.

ok cukup psl hal game.

aku tak sehat hari ni. selsema. tapi bukan selsema bab* ye. tsk. tetibe riso plak. jap lg nk check la lain2 simptom demam tu. takut plak tetibe. tadi g mkn kt 12th, nmpk ade org bukak booth nk check H1N1 tu. siap bg mask free. tapi aku takut. lagi pun tgh sebok cuci mata kot. x sedar kiri kanan dh. btw, sedap gile cendawan goreng. mungkin lepas ni hari2 la aku mkn cendawan goreng. biase la tu, dulu ketagih air tembikai. skrg ketagih cendawan ngan ayam bijan. jgn mengidam biawak goreng sudah. euww.

oh mlm td aku mimpi bongek gile. tapi kelakar pon ade. bole x aku mimpi shah rukh khan ngorat aku? ape kejadah? ni sume sbb aku selalu sgt dikelilingi bangla2 dalam kehidupan seharian la ni. nek tren jmpe bangla. turun tren jmpe bangla. pegi kedai jmpe bangla. so bile la pulak mase aku nk jumpa lelaki melayu sejati yang kacak2 ni? sigh.

masalahnye dgn llki melayu ni, kalau kacak, kerek la pulak. opss.

lab work pulak. hm, so far so good. tapi rase nye skrg progress slow sikit la kot memandangkan shaker masih tak sampai dan shaker lame sudah biol. xpe la. less work but drawback nye, lambat la siap. klo nk tahu lebih lanjut cite psl labwork, refer blog ada. aku mls nk cite panjang2. wat abes air liur je. ada xpe, die rajen. sbb tu ladang die yang paling maju. eh, xde kene mengena dgn isu labwork.

okla. dh lewat. xlarat jugak ni. mulut sangat kering. hidung beringus (tapi bukan ingus ijo) dan pale pon pening.

till then. have a great day. stay out of trouble ( a reminder to myself too)
taa!

oh aku adalah sangat malas untuk meng-update blog sebenarnya
tetapi memandangkan fifo telah mengecam aku supaya meng-komen blognya, maka terpaksa lah aku meng-update sekali blog aku yang hampir bersawang ini

aku adalah sangat kagum melihat ketekunan fifo mengupdate
dia mengupdate secara bersungguh2 dan ini telah menimbulkan rasa terkesima dalam diri aku
aku pon mesti update nih
(walaupon tiada cerita menarik untuk aku sampaikan disini)
heh.

anyway, nnt aku akan cerita perihal labwork
sekarang adalah malas mahu meng-upload gambar

oh, lagi satu tujuan aku meng-update adalah kerana aku sedang gilakan game farmtown di facebook
sesiapa yang bermain permainan itu sila memberi aku pokok2 yang byk
menatang2 ternakan nanti2 bila ladang dh maju baru lah kasi
(boleh ke nk demand mcm tu? korang sayang aku kn? sile beri. ini arahan.)
*bajet mcm kn aku ni avril lavigne plak*

eh, apsl msti avril?
tah aku pon xtahu la

oh ya. kepada nora dan ada
mengapa ladang korang sangat maju?
bukankah aku yang mula2 bermain permainan itu dan telah memperkenalkan nya kepada korang?
tapi korang punya ladang seperti telah bermain dari bulan lepas
oh korang mahu melawan tokey ya
sekarang dah maju dah byk pokok nk lupa daratan ye
sampai hati mu rakan2
bagaimanakah kamu mendapat uang yang byk untuk membeli seeds?

ajar lah sayaaaaaa
saya nk tanam pokokkkkkk
saya nk duit banyakkkkkkk

heh. mengada2 betul.

aku merasakan sekarang adalah sangat bz
mana nk main farmtown
nk tgk cd yg pinjam dr nora
nk tgk spongebob
nk bace journal (eh eh. ni ada dalam list kah?)

okla. nk siram pokok dan cari duit untuk beli seeds.
have a good day ppl!
love ya heaps

taa!

pheww..akhirnya. i can go online. (chehs, bunyik macam kan ape je). hihi. internet was down since friday for wutever reason. aku tidaklah kuasa ingin mengkaji. mungkin sbb oboy tak bayar la kot. tapi mustahil la pulak. dia mesti bayar, cuma selalu lambat. ataupon biasa la..maxis la problemo kot. anyway, sekarang dh boleh online, aku malaslah mahu banyak bunyik.

last week was exhausting one. lab work took much of my time and energy. work from 9-6 most of the days. sampai je kat lab pukul 9 terus start wat keje. tak payah ada punch card, me n my group members dah macam pekerja buruh terlatih. well, we were quite blur on the 1st day. but things went smoothly afterwards sebab dah plan apa yang patut buat n work+time management pon dah bagus.

and surprisingly, i never thought tht i can stay in the lab for long hours and be happy about it. those who knew me will surely understand what will happen during hari2 yang ada lab 3jam dulu. i can get moody lepas blk rumah sebab sangat penat. sekarang pon penat. mana tak nya, almost 9hours buat kerja so bila sampai rumah badan adalah seperti sawi busuk. layu tak bermaya tapi tetap menten wangi ok.

sekarang tidak lagi. i'm sooo looking forward for the next day. ok ini adalah menggatal tapi tak pe la. asalkan bersemangat. aku semakin rela untuk terus menggatal. hahaha. tak payah paham kn. sila abaikan.

i think, all these things happen after watching 17 again.

my lab mates n i went to watch tht movie last monday kalau tak silap since that day kitorang tak ada kerja sangat sebabnya itu adalah 1st day of lab. after membaham mekdi terus je tgk movie. my verdict, 9/10 and i didnt know that zac efron could be such a hotness..*drooling*. when he acted in high school musical, aku adalah tidak teringin langsung nk tgk cte tu. in fact, sampai skrg pon tak tengok. ape yang best sangat cte org menari sambil menyanyi? nmpak macam dipenuhi lelaki2 lembut je. sangat tidak mengujakan. but in this movie especially during tht part yang dia dh jadi muda dan telah bertukar imej sambil memandu kereta yang super cool...oh sila pass kan tissue sebab air liur telah meleleh. ok exaggerating disitu but thts my definition of hotness. heh.

sila jangan menjadi bimbo menonton movie smpai meleleh air liur dengan melihat jejaka kacak tapi tidak mengambil pengajaran dari movie tersebut. so, aku pon penat jadi bimbo maka aku pon mengambil pengajaran. pengajaran yang aku dapat adalah, jangan penyesali jalan/keputusan yang diambil. just make the best out of it coz u never knew what's waiting for u at the end of it. macam kena dengan situasi aku yang kerap mengomel dan merungut.

its like i've been enlightened. yela, xkesah la macam mana tahik sekali pon hidup anda. siapa tahu jika anda berusaha sedaya upaya, ketahikan itu akan hilang. sebab hidup kan macam roda, hari ini mungkin tahi, esok mungkin tidak tahi dah. (apasal banyak sangat word tahi ni. euww). but anyway, u got wut i mean?

dan selepas menonton cerita itu. aku rasa hidup aku makin ceria. betul2 macam aku menjadi sweet 17 semula. hah. macam tidak mahu cerita tapi wth. cerita je la. korang bukan tahu betul ke tak cerita ini. tah2 aku tipu korang hidup2. hahaha.

so nak dijadikan cerita dongeng. aku rase macam budak umur 17 tahun semula. banyak la peristiwa yang berlaku sepanjang minggu lepas yang menyebabkan aku suka pergi lab. yang menyebabkan aku malu2 kucing smpai rasa nak lempang muke sendiri laju2. pastu aku rase macam tak payah balik rumah, tidur dekat lab pon aku rela. ok ni lagi super exaggerating la kan. so tak payah la aku cerita detail, korang bukan paham pon aku merapu ape. tapi itu la. macam dapat pencahayaan agung.

apa2 pon. i'm happy. ^______^

tahu tak apa yang aku selalu doakan? supaya Allah beri aku kegembiraan. dan aku rasa macam doa aku tu telah dimakbulkan. tak kesah la if mende ni tak permanent pon. tapi aku gembira sebab dah lama aku tak looking forward to something yang mana aku betul2 rasa sangat looking forward to. ok, ayat aku tunggang-langgang. paham sendiri dah la ye. dan yang paling penting, apa yang perlu aku lupa, aku lupa. walaupon bukan 100% lupa tapi ingat pon dah tak ada kesan ape2.

nora cakap, the opposite of love was not hate. it was apathy. and i guess its true.

so. life's good. ^_______^

kalau project berjalan lancar. result mantap seperti diharapkan. life will be double good.

oh korang tahu kan yang kfc dah keluarkan perisa baru? sapa dah try? aku dah try. biasa lah aku. tengok je iklan tu, terus aku jadi jakun cam orang bukit. tergedik2 nak makan kfc fiery crunch. malam tadi tah ape cerita dora ajak makan. pegi 3 orang je ngn mak. kesannya, pagi ni aku sakit perut gile. mmg fiery btul la. terbakar perut aku. dari pagi smpai tengahari macam beruk kena cili je aku rasa. tak sedap, tak payah la makan. silap2 kena cirit birit macam aku. so sila la jangan mencontohi jakun seperti aku. lagi sedap makan ayam mekdi. tapi ayam mekdi mahal. pastu tak de coleslaw dan whipped potato plak tu. kan bagus kalo ade pakwe tokey mekdi. hari2 aku belasah mekdi. cukup bulan aku signup masuk who's the biggest loser.

i wanna be someone new. i wanna be happy. and i wanna give the best in everything i do. dan yang penting, aku suka spongebob dan kawan2nya.

okla. you ppl have a great day ok.
semoga anda pon ceria2 selalu~

taa!